The First Cord and the End of the Meditation Challenge

After doing the working for the first cord of Aphrodite's Magic, I gave myself a few days to really think about the work accomplished. I felt the working went well but I only had a few new insights into what it was supposed to accomplish which was getting me closer to the Goddess. Because I work with the Goddess on a full time basis, introducing me to Her was a bit of a formalization. I felt that I've done this work before. I did, however, gain some new insights into my feelings towards Aphrodite and Goddesses associated with her.
During the working we did a guided meditation and during this we were asked to hear a word that Aphrodite whispers to us. I didn't so much hear a word as I did feel and taste something on my tongue. The taste was sweet and rich like honey and it also had the sticky, syrupy feel of honey as well. I also had the sensation of dripping, gooey, liquid, filling, decadent, and melting. The word I settled on was "sticky" because it both encompassed the initial feeling as well as the idea that the Goddess will "stick" with me on this journey. It also implied the sexual connotations of oral sex. Being married to a man, I've never actually had the opportunity to perform oral sex on a woman despite being bisexual. I also have an aversion to performing oral sex on men due to a traumatizing experience in my past. (To make a long story short, two of my ex's were having a conversation in front of another friend of mine about my techniques and implied that I wasn't any good at it. The friend told me and I was so horrified that I haven't been able to bring myself to do it for anyone else regardless of whether it was true or not.) I think this was Her way of telling me to try new things (or old things as it were) and that She would be there with me for support. All in all, it was an interesting and comforting experience and I look forward to moving onto the next cord.

In a final post about my mediation challenge, I will say that although I was unsure if I would continue meditation every day after the challenge, my husband informed me that he had seen such a noticeable and positive change in my attitude since I began the challenge, that I will most likely continue after all. it's funny how we may not notice the changes in ourselves and it often takes someone else to say something before we see it. Looking back I do see the benefits of dealing with issues outside of this realm that have positive effects on us in this reality.